So apparently stranger things actually CAN happen…

This is his weekend.  He has them at least until tomorrow morning when he is bringing them back for Mother’s Day festivities.

So this text comes through this morning…

From our talk with the counselor on Tuesday.  I don’t recall exactly how u described our divorce for the kids.  I would appreciate if you could share with me…

Thanks and hope you have a wonderful Saturday.

Ohh BTW.  Disregard my request to switch weekends in August.  It is no longer necessary.

The weekend switch was in an effort to get weekends with the paramour set so she could come visit with the kids WITHOUT her kids so they may ‘take to her’ better as they ‘moved forward’ in their relationship.  So I guess I am to deduce from this that they must have split.  Again.

I responded and gave him the response from the counselor’s office visit and added at the end “Sorry to hear your situation is not as you had hoped.” Just to recognize his position and so I didn’t seem the cold hearted bitch I was feeling like when I wanted to respond with “awwww, that’s too bad…lol…now I don’t have to alter my schedule to accommodate you and your paramour’s progress in your new life together”

If only it just ended there…but OHHHH NOOOOOOOO!

Thx.  All will be good.  I am continue with counseling and am concentrating on the thing that has been broken from the beginning and was root cause (what I brought) my inability to love and forgive myself.  I couldn’t really be there for you and I can’t really ever be there for anyone else until I really find Me and find and trust in Him.  I have a long way to go… I am sorry (more than u will ever know) for my part of braking our relationship beyond repair.

I wish I knew what to do with this…

There is so much in there that I HOPE is true.  So much I have HEARD BEFORE to some degree.  So much that I WISH he had said and believed and stood behind so many years ago.

My heart leans toward a place of mush even while my head argues that it’s all in a moment…there’s no proof in the pudding…

And really…why do I care anyway?

It’s not like it changes anything at this point…

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I have a problem...I see myself through the eyes of my ex...and his glasses are not really the most flattering. I really need to get my own glasses...so this is MY Perspective.
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4 Responses to So apparently stranger things actually CAN happen…

  1. bamboozled1 says:

    ^what i was going to say but better @ neph 😛

    its nice to hear those things, them being able to even say them is a pretty big deal. theres still the issue of then what, and how long will it last?

    ya know what i wanna reply? (if it were me) COOL STORY BRO! lol. now show me the movie!

  2. Now THAT is a turn around. 🙂 . Do this simple exercise.

    Take a plate.
    Go and throw it on the concrete.
    (It breaks).
    Now say you are sorry.
    “I am sorry that I broke you.”

    Is the plate fixed?

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