I’ve come here to vent…I’ve come here to sort…I’ve come here in search of validation in some regards…
I am 39 and the mother to three amazing children, one in each level of school before you reach college, and a full time 5th grade teacher…so I’m extremely busy. My children each have their respective “activity” and I am in 100% support. I love them all dearly, and while they are my life in many regards, I know they are separate and I want them to be! I endeavor to make them strong, independent, compassionate, and giving human beings.
August 2011, one week before starting my first full time job in 13 years, I was told by my ex that he had been having an affair for the previous 6 months. During that time we had just started settling in to the 3rd new state his job brought us to one and a half years prior AS WELL AS bought what I had hoped to be the “raise the kids up in” home (on HIS salary, mind you). Upon finding out, I kicked him out immediately and told him we needed to work on the marriage in a big way and that I hoped we could do that, but that he would need to work his way back in. Truly, I begged him to work on it (and no, it wasn’t pretty)…he wasn’t really interested in that. We’ve been divorced officially since May 2013.
I do not wish to be defined by this event, however I find myself constantly tied up in the day to day of it and want to make sure I don’t lose myself in it. I am a good mom, a good teacher, a good friend, and I deserve more. Right now, I just need a place to sit down, tell my stories, and feel connected to something bigger than what’s happened/happening to me…thanks for visiting.